It has been a while since I have properly sat down behind a keyboard and penned a diary. I may have done it once or twice in the past year when I found the time or the mood struck me. I don't have a proper computer so most of the time I am posting from a mobile device which anyone can tell you isn't exactly the best for site interface. Well I guess I am due, and I have a laptop I am using unfettered for thew moment and I have something to say, so here goes.
Christmas has always, well since maturing and I use the term loosely, brought a dichotomy of feelings to me. On one hand I love family, giving both in terms of gifts as well as time and selfless work and the uptick in love people tend to express to strangers. On the other hand I am put off by the blatant over the top consumerism and selfish "I want this and this and this" that comes into play as well. I also am burdened with the thoughts of those who struggle in our society more than normal. People pinning for some carbon copy keeping up with the Jones gift whether it be a new electronic device or fashion or toy or adornment. Many people get caught up in the "Mom everyone else has one" attitude and want one for themselves just like it.
This Christmas is no different. I find myself somewhat gainfully employed, and it has been nearly a year since I have had to visit a vampire, I did have to tell my dishwasher at work he was being cut back to one day a week. I am aggressively lobbying for him to get the janitorial duties since we will be letting that service go but it's not a done deal. So when I see people lavishly buying shit they don't need as a status symbol of sorts, from places and companies that care little for people and only care about the season for it's effect on their bottom line, well I am a bit put off by it.